An emotional wreck. That’s how I would describe myself throughout my entire pregnancy with Christian.
The moment I realized I was a mom, when I saw those two pink lines, I immediately fell to my knees in our bedroom and cried — and prayed. In that instant, I realized I had an incredible, miraculous gift living inside of me. And the moment I realized what I had, I feared what I now had to lose. So I prayed. I prayed out to God to protect my baby, who was the size of a poppy seed at the time. I prayed for a healthy pregnancy. I prayed for a healthy baby. And so begun the emotional journey that was my pregnancy.
I cried tears of joy when I told my husband the news. I cried again when we told our families. I cried tears of relief and excitement at every ultra sound appointment that confirmed our baby was doing alright. I cried when we heard our baby’s heartbeat.
When we found out about Christian’s cleft lip and palate, my pregnancy got even more emotional. I cried every day for the rest of my pregnancy. I cried tears of grief. I cried tears of anger. I cried tears of jealousy and bitterness. I cried tears of helplessness. But I still also cried tears of joy — because I still knew our daughter was a gift from God and I knew we’d love her regardless of her health.
My faith was tested over and over again throughout my pregnancy. Faith that God would not abandon me or my daughter. Faith that my God is bigger than any worldly troubles — no matter how big they seem. Throughout my pregnancy, I turned away from God…and turned back to him…turned away from him…and turned back to him…and so on. I was now an emotional and spiritual wreck. It’s easy to give ourselves to and have faith in God when things in life are going the way we want. It’s entirely different to do so when things are falling to pieces. When you feel abandoned and betrayed.
So, the day finally came when I was induced. I had prepared a “pregnancy binder” that had everything in it from contact lists, birth plans, important paperwork and identification, etc. It also had a list of bible verses. And I’ll mention now that I cried the whole time I made the list at home a few weeks before (see what I mean? — emotional wreck). I wasn’t sure how the bible verses would come into play during my labor, but I knew I would need to hear them. Once I got to about 6-7cm dilated, my contractions were extremely painful. The moment where we’d get to meet our daughter was coming closer. I was excited to meet her. I was nervous to birth her. I was anxious to see the severity of her cleft. And I knew I needed to hear the bible verses. So I asked my husband to get the binder and read them to me. He read me one bible verse for each contraction. And yes, you guessed it, after only reading the first few words of each bible verse, I wept. Can anyone relate to the feeling of turning your back to God? I don’t know about you, but anytime I have in my life, the “overwhelming, never-ending reckless love of God” hits me like a ton of bricks…and it brings me to tears. These bible verses were exactly what I needed to hear during my labor!
So whether your pregnancy has gone as planned and the tears have been kept to a minimum, or if you’ve been an emotional wreck like I was, these bible verses will help give you the strength you need to birth your baby. I hope they help you like they helped me! I’ve included a printable version of the bible verses if you want to include them in your hospital bag!
Bible Verses to Help You Through Labor
- Jeremiah 1:5, 8 Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you. Before you were born I set you apart. Do not be afraid…for I am with you…declares the Lord!
- Isaiah 41:10 So do NOT fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
- Isaiah 40:29-31 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow weary and tired, and young men stumble and fall. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like Eagles; they will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not be faint.
- Philippians 4:13 I can do ALL THINGS through Christ who strengthens me.
- James 1:17 Every good and perfect gift is from above
- 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
- Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
- Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
- Isaiah 43:1-2 “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.”
- Esther 4:14 Perhaps this is the moment for which you have been created.
- Lamentations 3:22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
- Romans 8:18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
- 1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.
Aubrey, this is deeply beautiful. I’m reading a book calked,” You Can Really Grow”, and the next chapter is on growing through suffering. I must admit, I’d rather skip that part! But I know, as you know by living that chapter, that hardships are the best tools to make us like Jesus. I rejoice that you’re clinging to Him. You and your sweet baby are becoming more beautiful every day through this. I’d sure live to meet her! Love from your old friends, the Williamsons. P.s., I’m going to share your blog with a friend in a very frightening pregnancy right now. Thank you for writing!
Thank you so much! Yes, it’d be nice if we could skip on the suffering. Thank you for sharing the post; I hope it can help other women going through a hard time!